Sixty,

Monster

Fifty-nine,

When you’re jealous of him hugging another girl, because for that whole second, she was holding your whole world.. that’s love

You made me feel safe, like no matter what, you were gonna protect me.

She was a girl who knew how to act happy even when she was sad. And that’s important.

The world is full of goodbyes. You probably meet a new one every day, but that never makes it any easier.

It's my only wish

The good thing about pictures is they don’t change, even if people in them do.

Anyone can make you smile or cry, but it takes someone special to make you smile when you already have tears in your eyes.

In order to be happy you have to accept that at times, you will be sad and not let that bother you.

Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.

It sucks to write about someone so amazing in the past tense
Nothing hurts more than knowing you've been lied to.

Fifty-eight,

Fifty-seven,

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.

Fifty-six,

I'll be flying to Bangkok tonight!
Update in a week time.

Happy Valentine's Day!

fifty-five,

Two people in love, alone, isolated from the world, that’s beautiful.

You can’t control when you lose your heart.
The only thing you can do is trust,
trust that the person who has your heart realizes it’s value.

I’m starting to get really damned sick and tired of this messy spiderweb of lies,
fakeness, pretense and forced expressions that I call my life.

After a while, you get sick of caring and you’re too hurt to fight.
Sometimes no matter what you do, things won’t be alright.

X:If it kills you to hold on, why don't you just let go?

Y:I can't.. I just can't. It'll hurt even more to do so.

If you look inside a girl’s heart, you’d see how much she really cries,
you’ll find hidden secrets, best friends & lies.

In order to be happy you have to accept that at times,
you will be sad and not let that bother you.

Find a heart that will love you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest.

But what bothers her the most is when someone walks into her life knowing they won't stay.

Anyone can make you smile or cry,
but it takes someone special to make you smile when you already have tears in your eyes.

People ask why it's so hard to trust people and I ask them why it's so hard to keep a promise.

It's not about who you've known the longest, it's about who's never left your side.

The world is full of goodbyes. You probably meet a new one every day, but that never makes it any easier.

You made me feel safe, like no matter what, you were gonna protect me

If you have ever lost someone very important to you, then you already know how it feels & if you haven’t, you can’t possibly imagine it

Learn from your past, move on, grow stronger, people are fake and your trust lasts longer; do what you do, but always stay true, and never let anybody get the best of you

What I like the most about you is that you can make me laugh when nothing's funny.

So we'll go our own ways, and hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you. Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.

Missing someone is your heart's way

of reminding you that you love them

I want to be remembered as me

fifty-four,

I LOVE YOU,
even when you are ripping my heart piece by piece

fifty-three,

You can erase somebody from your mind.
Getting them out of your heart is another story.

fifty-two,

Every girl has that one boy that they'll never get over.

The one guy who makes you laugh all the time.

The one who gives you butterflies, just when someone mentions his name.

That one who remembers all the things that you think you say are stupid.

And reminds you about it months from now.

The one who has his name written all over your heart.

The one who you compare to every guy.

The one you never get sick talking or hearing about.

The one that you cry over and over about.

The one that no one can understand.

That one everyone thinks you can do better than.

The one when you first saw him you knew you loved him.

Why him.. ?